So many things have happened in the past month...ish. Dumb things... where I wish there was an "undo" button for my stupidity or that I could just go back 3 seconds and make a different decision.
Case in point: tonight. Because I didn't want to wait for a train, I sped through the railroad crossing as the lights were flashing (right before the bars started coming down). Aaaaand I'm about 99% sure I got a TICKET. I saw a bright, white flash. Really, Webster Groves??! I've never even heard of that before. But the matter been googled. I'm screwed.
I was SO annoyed at myself for not just waiting. I beat myself up about it for about 15 minutes... And then? I realized that there was nothing I could do about it. Nothing! I mean, I'll never go through a railroad crossing again when the lights are flashing. And when my ticket comes, it sucks, but I have to pay it. And... oh well. It happens.
So, I'm learning that when you view life this way, it's freeing. This isn't to say you don't learn from your mistakes... just that you don't dwell in the past and the "what if's" or "I wish's." There's great freedom in that. Some things just don't matter as much as I think they do.
